Living through the loss of my husband and 21+ year love affair. We met when I was 39 and he was 55 – I wondered how I could feel attraction to someone so much older. But there it was. A year later we were married and had the most amazing 20 years. One month after we married, he was rushed into open-heart surgery. The cardiac surgeon, said, “Don’t worry, we’ll give you another 20 years with him.” But we knew. The odds were that he would pass before me, with the age difference and the vascular disease. Still, 20 years later, it was sudden. He dropped to the floor upstairs and was just gone. Just like that. So as we met in text, we part in text. I began this blog so I could still write to him and share with him the things I would be saying. Now at the end of this first year, I have left several early entries here changed over from “private” to “public.” Now I want to blog for other widows, to share my experiences. If I can make a difference to one other widow out there, that will be so wonderful.